It’s that time. That time in a person’s life when you begin to doubt your abilities, your existence. The question floats around every day. The question being; what am I meant to do in this life? That crisis you face when you think about the next step. Jumping into adulthood, finding, no scraping, for a job.
I must’ve filled out close to 10 applications, not knowing where I stand in the pool of job seekers. I don’t remember the last time I actually had to put in this much effort to get something I want, no, I need.
Maybe I’ve just been really lucky all along.
Maybe I can be a writer? No. Maybe a teacher? No. A researcher? A police officer? A politician? A secretary? No. An analyst? I don’t know. Right now, I’ll take anything they give me.
Every night, I think about it. I think about where I’m actually meant to be. It’s one thing to want to be somewhere or do something, but another thing altogether to be meant for it. Every night, I pray for a sign, I pray that tomorrow brings good news, I pray that I find some closure.
If anyone is reading this, pray for me too will you? I normally wouldn’t ask, but I think I really need it right now.
Thank you dear friend. God bless.
Sighh. Grad trip please?
|When someone walks slower than me:||omfg your slow ass is clogging up the hallway for the rest of us put some pep in your step grandma|
|When someone walks faster than me:||jesus christ are you on the run from the police this isn't a race you can tone it down usain bolt|
|When someone walks at the same pace as me:||who gave your creepy ass permission to walk with me get the fuck away before I call the cops|
2012 was filled with ups and downs. The ups mostly because of good relationships, strong ones growing stronger and new ones formed. Family, as family always is, was strengthened through hard times. As a wise friend once said, people bond through adversity. And truly enough, my relationships are living examples.
The downs were mostly financial, but they were never enough to push us off the edge. I pray that 2013 could be the year we kick finance in the butt. In shaa Allah.
At the end of 2011, I didn’t think Redzuan could be any more amazing. But in this year itself, he has shown me how much of a man he’s become. How intelligent, caring, talented and passionate he is. Everyday, he reminds me again of why I love him and why he’s the only man I want for the rest of my life. It is truly God’s will that has brought and kept us together for this long. And I thank Him for it everyday.
2013 will be a year of graduations, a year of weddings, a year of crossing into working life and adulthood. It will be a year of new beginnings more so than ever. I pray He gives us strength to get through the tough times, and the humility to thank Him for good times. I pray we remember Him in all that we do, and that we look to Him in both beautiful and ugly days. I pray we keep Him in our hearts, just as He keeps us in His. Amin.